You may have seen that we're raising money for charity whilst doing this trip around the world. Whilst we don't expect people to donate, even to our chosen one if at all, we do hope that we can start a conversation about how each and every one of us is doing.
Physical challenges ranging anywhere from a mile run to a trip such as this is at least 50% a mental challenge. There's a mental battle to just keep yourself going, to not listen to the aching legs pleading with you to stop. Eventually and if you do it for long enough you'll learn to love that battle and each time you win it becomes easier and easier to do it the next day.
We're finding our rhythm but I do have down mornings. Currently I'm doing alternate days of 10MG Citalopram then none at all. It's quite noticeable the difference between the on and off days only because of the difficulty of settling into the rhythm of cycling every day. The down mornings, when it's really difficult to get out of bed, when I don't want to do anything, come more often after an evening of alcohol. So now I've learnt to keep that intake down (without being rude and refusing it when offered by hosts) and also that the down mornings get better once I'm on the bike and the endorphins are coursing through my body.
The down feelings aren't because I don't want to be doing this. This is exactly what I want to be doing. It's all brain chemistry, it's not for a particular reason and I guess that's the most frustrating thing with depression. It's not just about cheering up, it's about counterbalancing the wrong brain chemistry with the right chemistry. We've been outside all day almost every day for almost three weeks and 'green space therapy' is one of the biggest differences for the both of us. Exercising outside was one of the reasons why British Military Fitness worked so well for us and I think it's going to be the biggest help towards us getting through the depression whilst coming off the antidepressants on this trip. Mike is reducing his intake and is doing well. We're both doing well, really, considering what we're doing. I certainly couldn't be doing this by myself.
So that's me. How are you doing today?